unreal disreality

struggling with thoughts - intention is a driver to receive what you think you desire. we never quite understand the big picture - the one created by the sum of small choices that we make as we live our lives. so much is done in the quest for what is right - but vantage point is different between right and left, right and wrong, rights and responsibilities. our solo mind-sets have been overwhelmed by the cognitive dissonance of self-serving information.

Science, my field, was set as the cornerstone of what we knew to be truth. The field has evolved into wishful thinking based on outcomes driven by political agenda. The high costs have made gang science into the primary display - good for humanity does not translate to good for individual humans. Look at the current politicization of medicine - causing illness and strife rather than creating better health. Last week's revelation of the climate change information manipulation just tells me to look at the data and process the numbers on my own. (i do that anyway).

The costs of peer review are paid in truth. I would rather publish science in form of poetry, than to run the gauntlet of the gatekeeper system. The current system is manipulated by the people in charge with a standard whack-a-mole mentality; and dirty tricksters if you don't play wink, wink, nudge, nudge, with the current game.

Emergence requires nucleation points - two is more stable than one. Most models say helium is super stable - most twos pair up and curl up into their own space and time. There is something to be said in favor of this - however it will not solve any of the inconsistencies that plague our current body of whirled knowledge. i am torn between visions - i would like to change perspective - always seeking truth. i am ready for the step from one to two, are you?