February 20, 2012

More on Delusion

I would argue that most people are delusional and that there is nothing wrong with that! What is wrong is to superimpose our thinking in a weigh that requires the apparently delusional person to conform to our way of thinking. We do not share a common reality, no matter what the next person thinks, precisely because the next person thinks. So being able to talk for anyone who is not you gets to be very risky business.

The black cat has left the room, so he must not agree with the point (or the birds outside the open door are too much of a feline temptation). I had a disconnect with 'reality' in attempting to cash a check at the bank it was drawn upon. I did not carry in the required two pieces of i.d. and the teller would not budge. She asked me for my social security card as a second - which has absolutely no photo on it and is one of the most readily forgable documents ever created. And it is prohibited by law from being used as i.d. Yet i left without getting the hundred dollars on the check and wasted the half hour and gas that it took me to go to the bank. It will be the last bank visit i ever take.

I wonder that if she surprised me and said - 'just this time okay, but next time please bring a second form of i.d. in addition to your drivers license', if she thought a homeland security person would walk out of the vestibule and arrest her for enabling identity fraud. Hate to inform the grubbermint that I know i am me and the burden of proof is on them and their lackeys (or is it the banks who the grubs are lackeys for? - revolving door - doesn't matter). They already attempt to control my behavior by suspending my d.l. for not consenting to their kangaroo court. A signature obtained under duress should not be valid in a constitutional court of law. How many delusional realities does that statement contain?

There is another delusion that i run into often that strikes a real prick. People that think that they work for a living by doing manual labor, seem to think that work can only be measured in their manual labor terms. They are just as smart as everybody else, which last time i checked fit nicely onto a bell curve when measured objectively. But by not giving thought any credit for being work, because they think too and don't derive income from their thoughts, they demean every person that works in the intangible universe. Sorry , but it's not my fault that i can think more clearly with a chess game on the net to occupy the grinding time.

Grinding time is when you have the data and you know the positions and you have to work through the ramifications of the problem. The sequence of steps that it takes to have the solution work within the confines of the given is exceptionally hard when we refuse to verify that our givens are given after we get the answer. Not to mention the bias of pre-knowing the answer invalidates the work, especially when the experiment is altered by an actor mid-stream. The confines or limits are set not by the probability of finding the correct answer, but by the desire to achieve the already known correct answer. Yeah, delusional reality.

I live in a reality called Hemn Space. See Stephenson's tomb Anathem for the concept, it is not hard to grok. You basically change the limits outside of the normal bounds and conduct a thought experiment - the field is called Theorics. It is just a different paradigm, but when i think in that mode, i need to have a) a quiet working space and b) a distraction that allows me to do something mechanical that doesn't upset the thinking space. Manual labor, where you have to pay attention to things so that you don't hurt yourself, does not allow simultaneous thinking in Hemn space. Yet i keep losing friends who believe that i sit around playing games all day. If they had the privilege of being able to think just 10% of the time, they would wise up rather quickly. But they are too busy to waste time reading a blog, so their delusions will not allow my delusion and so , bye again.

I guess - because if they talked to me about what the problem really is, maybe we could find a solution. But unilateral action is just not the rule in Hemn space, so the opinion just leaves me annoyed and shattered (in a stones sense: y'know, sex and love and dirty dreams, were all surviving on the scene). Love is the answer, but the term has been redefined in such a way that it would not be recognizable by a black cat - the current seers in our universe.

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